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The author of this entry has chosen to stay anonymous. Say hello to anonymous number 4.
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You are slowly killing me. It's bizarre to me that my heart is still
beating after being completely broken. You know how hard it was for me
when my Mom passed away 5 months ago. It's something I'll never ever get
over. And you thought you'd take it upon yourself then to tell me that
you no longer wish to be married to me. Perfect timing. As if my world
wasn't already shattered into a million pieces. The worst part is that I
can't seem to get any answers from you. I don't know what I did wrong
or what I can do to fix it. Just like that you're ready to give up, walk
away & not look back. I thought we were happy. You seemed happy.
You stay out all hours of the night while I'm left to sit with our
children & answer their heartbreaking questions. I'm dying inside.
Even when you're home you ignore me. No communication, no touching, you
don't even look at me. I feel worthless. Like I'm a piece of dirt on the
bottom of your shoe. It's a form of abuse- neglect. And it hurts like
hell. I'm sorry that things ended up this way. I never imagined I'd end
up pregnant through all of this. I know you do not want another child
but I can't help but think that this child is a blessing regardless of
the circumstances. A gift from God. The thought of having a baby without
my Mom here makes me want to die. It doesn't seem doable. And I don't
know that you'll be here either. I know I have other people who support
me but two of the most important people in my life are not here. And
it's your choice. I know if my Mom had the choice, she'd be here in a
heartbeat. There are days I'd rather die than get out of bed. I'm
broken. The only thing that keeps me going are the kids. I don't know
how much longer I can take this. You've beaten me down. I don't have
anything left of myself.
ANONYMOUS
ANONYMOUS
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