here and part two here.
The funny thing about this series is that I didn't mean it to be a series. I thought I could wrap up the whole long story in one post. And then two. And then three. And now I will just keep writing it until God says I'm done.
This part isn't so much about the journey as it is about a lesson I learned through it. Just today as I was in the shower running through the crazy list of things to be done before tomorrow when the moving truck comes, the utilities that still needed to be transferred, the things still to pack, the walls to still touch up, the email I need to write to our renters, etc, etc, etc. Running through that list I nearly grossed myself out with a realization.
I am realizing a dream we have had for years now. We are going HOME to a place where people I know and love will invest in my boys, where people know us and get us. Where we belong. We are getting something we have longed for and begged God for repeatedly. All that and we have spent very little time savoring the good gift He has given us. Its like we got what we always wanted, chucked it over our shoulders and said, now what's next on the list...pack, move, go, etc, etc. Not that we weren't and aren't thankful and amazed by all He has done to get it all for us but we haven't spent nearly enough time being GRACIOUS.
It's like inviting friends over for dinner and spending the whole time cleaning up after them immediately instead of being WITH them.
It's like being given a delicious cake for your birthday but not taking the time to eat it.
It's like begging my kids to put the toilet seat UP so I don't have to sit in a puddle and then grumbling when I nearly fall IN it in the middle of the night. Hey, at least they're putting it up right? Getting them to put it back down is step two.
How often do we do this? All the time I bet. Beg for something and then not take the time to enjoy it when we get it. Would I want my kids behaving this way? No way.
I don't think this makes us ungrateful, I just think we have to fight a little harder against the society standards of more, better, faster to STOP and enjoy a good gift when it's given. Add to that my "type A" personality and the fact that I've been a single parent for the last month while Doug has lived 2 1/2 hours away and the fact that I've had zero help packing, cleaning, house prepping or with childcare. Given all that, I still should be taking time to enjoy the dream that's coming true. To slow down a little and breathe.
I read something some time back in a devotional that I've thought of a lot lately. God has designed each and every moment of each of our days. He has a plan for what He wants us to achieve and get done and He makes time for all of it. If, at the end of the day, we find ourselves frazzled, crazed and with a huge to-do list still in hand, well guess what? I can promise you that we are doing things that He doesn't want us to do because His plan never leaves us frazzled and crazed.
Would we give our kids a gift and not want them to enjoy it, to play with it for hours and show it off to everyone who would listen yelling "LOOK WHAT MY PARENTS DID FOR ME?"! NO!! We love it when our kids enjoy what we give them.
Don't you just love it when you give the perfect gift and the person beams with Joy from the mere thought of it?
If we, then, though we are evil, know how to give good gifts to our
children (and enjoy seeing them enjoy it!!), how much more will our Father in heaven give good gifts to
those who ask him (and how much does he love to see us enjoy them??!!)! Matthew 7:11.
I'm off to savor a little. To do some good for someone else as a way to spread good gifts and give others a chance to savor, too.
I challenge you to do the same.