living without fear.

 
This post may be a little vague.  Because it has to be really, for the protection of those I love. 

But the Johnsens are being slammed.  Hurt.  Wounded and beaten by those in the position to do so.  We are struggling to hold our heads up high.  We are wandering through the dark at the moment, even though we KNOW good things are just around the corner.  You know how the saying goes, the darkest hour is just before the dawn.... 

A lot of people don't understand why I wear my emotions or my fears or my hopes or my dreams on my sleeve.  I do that for one reason:  prayer.  Why do I put myself out there?  Aren't I worried about being hurt or judged or people knowing "my business".  Well, my "business" is being human, and I have always believed that transparency leads to intimacy with others.  Showing our flaws and shortcomings reveals true beauty.  Pretending to have it all together can lead others to feeling deficient and lame. 

When I got pregnant with both of the boys, we told the world while the pregnancy test was still wet.  (gross, I know but I am making a point).  People would be shocked that we told so early.  We were chastised at times.  But you know why we did it?  Prayer.  I figured, the more people who knew, the more people could pray.  And if, sadly, something bad had happened you know what?  The more people who knew the more people could pray.  Darkness is something that no one should be alone in. 

We are called to bear one anothers burdens, in love.  A weight that is carried by many becomes light as a feather.  I know that many of you love me and will pray for my family right now, and how silly and selfish of me would it be to not call on the healing power of praying friends?

I will be able to share the whole story eventually, but not yet.  SOON I hope.

If you are so drawn, you could pray for strength, hope, for doors to be opened, for protection and above all, for peace for we are persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

We KNOW that there is a plan and we are using all of our strength to cling to that.  I appreciate your prayers, sweet friends and I am thankful for this HUGE body of believers to turn to!  I know that by writing this that 1,000's will be praying for us and that brings me huge comfort.

xoxo 
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17 comments:

Cary said...

I will be praying for you, that God will answer your prayers; that He will bring your family comfort and peace; that He will fill your hearts with hope and give you strength to continue on your path in faith. God answers prayer!!!

Amy said...

Praying for you and your sweet family!

mel said...

praying for your family, crystal. i hope all is much better for your family soon!

sara @ it's good to be queen said...

i'm so sorry. i am praying for you and your family. praying you feel Jesus so close today.

butwehavethistreasure said...

I feel the same way about letting people know things so that they can pray. We're strangers, but sisters in Christ...praying for you and your family.

derekcindyterp said...

How right you are. We all need to learn to be more like that, sharing each others burdens. But that can only be done when people are more open about their burdens. Good for you! I'll be thinking and praying for your family, that peace and rest may be found in upsetting circumstances. How awesome that you have such a wonderful bond with your husband and cute lil' boys. :D Makes situations like whatever you are going through SO much easier eh? Take care, and God bless.

Teri said...

I have prayed for you and your family. You are so correct about prayer... Keep strong in Him!

Eckmama said...

I will be lifting you all up in prayer. I have found that when fighting satan (which you certainly are), giving thanks to God out loud keeps him from having control over you. There is always something to be thankful for, and being thankful is what will help you find joy in all your circumstances. I am thankful that you have shared with us so that we can help bear your burden!
Blessings

everydaymomma said...

Praying for
You sweet lady!

Elisabeth said...

I'm so sorry you are hurting right now. I'll keep you and your family in my prayers. God will bring you through this!

Bunnyslady said...

Knowing that the higher power has a plan for you always makes it easier when you are having dark time. You are blessed to have so many people that love and cherish you and your family. I feel blessed that I happened upon your blog. Your family is in my prayers.

BeccaMarie said...

Will do.

hannah singer said...

praying for you! psalm 57:1-2 xo

cbryan said...

I am so glad you posted this. I am the type of person to burry my hurts deep down inside. I figure, no one wants to hear my complaints when there are so many worse things going on in the world. But I find so much comfort in prayer. Maybe someday I'll be able to find a way to be as open as you are.

Grace said...

I will be praying for you. Thank the Lord we have his unfailing love to carry us through.

Amber Martin said...

Praying for you :)

btsoi. said...

Will be praying for you!

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