be jealous.

oh friends.  i have no idea where this post will take us but my head and heart are swirling with so many thoughts on so many things that i just have to get some of them out. 

i have thought for some time now...that some of you out there must be getting tired of my Jesus loving posts lately...my aching, pouring out my heart posts about what i am learning and how i am learning it.  i know many of you came here or come here for the crafty side of me...and i wish i could apologize for getting all mushy on Jesus.  but i just can't. 

God is answering prayers in my life like never before.  the woman i have begged Him to shape me into is starting to form...some days i want to scream I AM GETTING IT!  of course other days i take a few steps backwards too...but even those times are more often than not, lessons learned.  

there is still so much to learn.  

i have always felt that God talks most clearly with me through pictures...whether it is grabbing the cusp of an idea or explaining something to me in a way i will get...i generally "get" it through a word picture...which is why i have always loved these lyrics by third day:

I caught a glimpse of Your splendor
In the corner of my eye
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
And it was like a flash of lightning
Reflected off the sky
And I know I'll never be the same

 i could not explain these pictures any better myself.  

and last night, as i was praying, i got one of these pictures in my mind...as i was praying for my character to develop, to be able to hear Him better, to be MORE of who He is calling me to be, i caught a picture of future crystal in the corner of my minds eye.  and really, it took my breath away.  it's hard to explain, but somehow through this picture i could tell the depth and breadth of my character.  it was beautiful.  it was so much more of who i want to be.

and let me just address now, that i am certain that there are some of you reading this, if you got this far,  that are thinking "what a crack head".  and i am sorry, but i don't care.  it's ok if you think i'm crazy.  not to be mean or rude...but let me tell you, sweet sister of mine,  God will do crazy things if you let Him.  hand over your life and reap the results of having someone who knows what they are doing in control.  you won't care how crazy you look either once you feel the comfort that the presence of God in your life will provide. 

years and years ago, if you had asked me what part of my life God is in control of...it would have been a sad looking pie chart.  let me tell you.  but once i decided to let Him out of the "sunday morning" box...girl, that is when life started.  the more i hand over, because He won't force it from my hand, the more blessed i am because of it.  

because i have given God the radio time in my car...i have had more conversations with my boys about Jesus then i would have if listening to the local radio station. 
because i have given God my marriage...i have so much more than a great husband. 

because i have given God my kids (because hey, they ARE His anyway)...i get to be a blessed mother of children.  

because i have given God control of my life path...it is full of peace...if not still hard at times. 

because i have given God my anger and hurt and injustice and pain and sorrow...He has healed and given joy in their places.  

i'm here to tell you...that if you are only seeking God on sunday.  
you aren't hurting God...you are hurting yourselves. 

 and that hurts my heart for you.  God wants to give you so much more. 

care less about looking crazy and care more about getting from God what He WANTS to give you. 

care less about getting the material things that others are flaunting at you and care MORE about the treasures God wants to store in your heart. 

care less about looking foolish in front of others and say to yourself...
as David did, "i'll become even more undignified than this..."

care less about being politically correct and care more about speaking God's truth in love. 

i don't know about you...but i am tired of living up to ever bending societal standards...i'd rather strive to be someone who lives up to THE standards that never change. His. 

i refuse to be a blogger who sets out to make you jealous of anything that i have been blessed with, save one exception.  my undying, unrelenting, unending love of Jesus.  my unquenchable thirst to serve Him, my endless pursuit of His glory, my never stalling desire to have Him be proud of me. 
and i only want you jealous because i want YOU to have it too.

so if you stop reading this blog because you can't take another Jesus post...or you stop following me on twitter because i keep retweeting rick warren...or rev run :)...well, i can offer no apologies for that.  

my God will not be contained to sunday mornings. 
i will serve Him, and follow Him, and share my heart as He prompts me.  

and yes, i will still be crafting and sewing and baking and cooking and sharing silly stories.  
and i love each and every one of you who read 
 (and that love is double for those who comment or email). :)  

i'm thankful for you ladies who are sharing this journey with me and i hope you will be around to know that future crystal...

xo

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29 comments:

Little Leach said...

you are awesome. keep sharing. HE is getting all. the. glory. what a testimony you have!! i love that you don't apologize for your faith. i believe that is a true test of the depth of your character. thanks for sharing!

Jessica said...

Oh my dear Crystal!

I love this post ... all I kept thinking in my head while reading every sweet word was ...

AMEN SISTER! :)

I am right there with you on this journey ... and am ALWAYS interested in reading how your journey is going.

Praying hard for you and your sweet family!

Jessica from thelaizydaisy.com
Xoxo

Millicent said...

you're so awesome :)

Laura said...

I love this post! It reminds me of the quote: "If Jesus isn't who He says He is, then nothing matters. If Jesus *is* who He says He is, nothing else matters."

Meyers Family said...

AMEN to that Crystal! I feel very blessed to have stumbled upon your blog months ago and follow your journey as a child of God. Blessings!
Whitney :)

Phyllis said...

I love this refreshing and real blog. Thank you.

Erin said...

love this! enjoying your crafty-ness and supporting your craft is so much cooler when you share all that the Lord is teaching you!

April b said...

I am probably not what most would consider a religious person but I do have a belief in God, I am not where you are in my journey nor may I ever be but I appreciate your words and your strong belief. I did start reading your blog because of your crafts but I have enjoyed reading all of your recent posts as well.

Crystal @ Ordinary Days said...

You go girl! I just wanted to say Amen 100 times as I read your post! God is talking to me and working on me in some of the same areas you mentioned. We (God and I) have been chit chatting lately about what it really means to "surrender all". I think you hit the nail on the head!

Bethany Hammar said...

Thank you for all your posts! I greatly enjoy reading them, your insight is great and I feel joy and peace reading of your walk with God! Thank you for your encouragement!

Oh Mandie said...

I've got to tell you friend, while I do love your silly stories and your crafting and cooking posts, I (like I imagine a lot of your readers) come visit your neck of the bloggy woods to read about your walk with Jesus because I'm encouraged by it.

It's refreshing to see and read about someone so real who deals with life struggles just like I do. And also who prays and asks Jesus for guidence like I do. You're real, and that's why your readers love you. :)

So keep on doing what you're doing, because as awesome as the Crystal in the future is going to be, the Crystal right now is pretty great too!

melissa said...

AMEN TO THAT! thanks for being real.

“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks to us in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world” C.S. Lewis

have a fantastic day, sister!

ZanBryDesigns said...

I was sitting here reading your blog and nodding with it. I agree with you 100% and I love coming to your blog and feeling like my soul has been fed with the word of god that you share and my crafting soul as well. Thank you for the refreshing blogs.

Megan said...

Exactly what I needed to hear this morning... Thank you.

angela said...

I am SO happy for you. And I love all the inspiration you share as I try to hop on the same path.

My favorite part : having someone who knows what they are doing in control

As a Catholic, I have been trying to go to daily mass and have been led to sending my littlest to the Catholic elementary school - trying to move us away from what the world says we should think and do. And John Paul II will be beatified this weekend...very exciting for me.

Christy said...

Well said! You are inspriring!!

~Ren said...

What a joy you are to the Lord, Crystal. You are able to use this blog as your testimony for all who come here, and are inspired by you. Through your sharing of your trials and joys, you have shown repeatedly how Christ is alive and listening to your wants and needs. Blessings, Renell

Cyan said...

I love to read your craft posts and your silly posts and your fun posts, but these posts touch my heart the most. They make me want to strive to be more the woman God has called me to be. I'm beginning to feel like I don't care what others think either. For years, I was a christian who hid it during the week. I didn't want to feel left out by my hard drinking, partying peers at work. But I'm changing. I've been the person who doesn't care what you think of me in every other way for years. Why is it taking so long to get there when it comes to God? But I'm getting there. Thank you for encouraging me!

derekcindyterp said...

This post made me GIDDY! :D That summed up SO much how I feel! WHO CARES what PEOPLE think? We aren't on this earth to please PEOPLE! PRAISE GOD from whom ALL blessings flow, and may we live and love to HIS glory ALONE! :D Great, fantastic post, and don't EVER stop posting your wonderful Jesus posts!!

Happy Hodge Podge said...

My. favorite. post. EVER.

Doublej2 said...

wow. well said, very well said. i just came across your blog and will be following you b/c of this post. i needed to read these words today.

~jan

Randi~Dukes and Duchesses said...

Awesome, encouraging post! Love hearing what you have to say.

Ellen - SkoMomma said...

Jesus lovin' posts are fine by me! Thank you for sharing your journey with us!
Your cyber-sister in Christ

Krystle... said...

I'm not going anywhere.

Margaret said...

Beautiful post :)

~ Lisa @ AbidingThere~ said...

i love it! xo

Tracy said...

All I can think to say is "Thank You"! I came to your blog b/c of the crafty fun, I follow your blog b/c of the encouragement and the inspiration you are. I consider you and your Jesus loving blog a blessing!

Cary said...

This is an AMAZING post!!! Exactly what I needed to hear!

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

Cristi Baxter Clothier said...

Awesome post, Crystal! I SO needed this post this morning! My life, my marriage and my finances are in major upheaval as I write this. I know that turning to God is THE ONLY answer, yet I still fight it. I was born-again at age 7 and have been riding the fence since my teens. I am certain that I can no longer keep God at arms-length and still expect him to provide for our families needs.

Thank you for your honesty and willingness to show how God has and is working in your life!

I'm crying as I write this because this post has reminded me very clearly that without God, my path in life will continue to be uncertain, scary, and without blessing.

My sincere thanks to you today!

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