I know I have been promising this for a while...but I really had to think about how I wanted to get it out there...what I have to say, that is. WHY I bother blogging. Why maybe you should too?
It really all comes down to people. The good, the bad and the ugly of it all.
I'm an extrovert on the outside...an introvert on the inside. My extrovert loves people and gatherings and being with others. My introvert is controlled by my insecurities and lack of faith in self.
Blogging is my therapy. My cookbook. My boys baby books. My spiritual journey. My journal. My way of sharing. My way of encouraging. My way of giving. My way of using what I have for good. My way of BEING the change that I want to see in others. My way of learning what I need to change about myself.
I have learned so much from blogging...and I have only been doing it for a little under three years. Blogging makes me think. Blogging makes me want to share...and share well. Which makes me think...a lot. And share and think and share and think.
I want my boys to know me well. For them to have a history of their lives. I struggled to get their first year baby books filled in and complete (but I did it!). I have tried to journal and scrapbook and do photo albums and all of that. None of it has stuck...I still have and do tons of photo albums but they don't always share the whole story.
Blogging allows me to interact with my history in a way that encourages me and moves me forward. Like...if you make a scrapbook page...it sits in a book...sometimes people will see it...some times it just sits there. With a blog you get instant, and often ongoing, feedback.
I like the back and forth of a blog versus a scrapbook. I like "meeting" people that I would never have in my real life. I like making friends, yes REAL friends, with people all over the globe.
I would have liked to live back in the day...you know...where you drove your little cart across the prairie, found a good spot, built a house and knew everyone in town within a few days. You would swap favors and crops and take care of each other. You knew each other well and watched out for each others kids.
Instead I live in a neighborhood where I am pretty sure that we are the only people who open their blinds on a daily basis...where kids throw rocks at my house and then spit in my grass when I ask them to stop. I try to be available and kind and friendly...but most of the people here are very guarded. We do have a couple of good neighbors though...and we are thankful for those.
Blogging expands my neighborhood.
Blogging exposes my weaknesses and various issues. This is usually through "the ugly" part of blogging...but I try and turn and work this for my GOOD. Usually a negative comment IS a negative comment because it preys on something that I need to work on. I use that as fuel to refine...to figure out WHY it bothers me and how I can use it to help myself grow as a person.
Blogging shows me how far have I come.
Blogging keeps me close to my family. We don't live close to any of our family really...the closest is 2 1/2 hours away...we don't get to see them much (though we are praying for that to change soon!!) This blog helps that family to know my kids a little better...to feel a little more like we live down the street...to keep in touch a little more...to hear some of the funny stories...to add another layer to our relationships...blogging knits my family closer together.
And that...above all...is why I blog.