We've had a lot of firsts here lately. And I just don't think my heart can take another...
Today was Moses' first day of preschool. We just got back from vacation yesterday afternoon so maybe it's the exhaustion of travel that has kept my heart in my throat all morning? Yes, I think I will blame that. Surely it has nothing to do with the fact that for the first time ever someone else will be taking care of my first baby...twice a week until next May. I am positive that does not have a thing to do with it. I am sure, also, that it has nothing to do with the fact that he marched into school without a single tear or that for the first time, what I have taught him at home will be put to the test while he is not under my wing.
I am also quite convinced that I am not mourning the loss of the schedule-less days. From here on out for the next 18 years my life will be dictated by school schedules...sigh...we no longer can choose to stay home on rainy days...or cuddle up for a movie on the extra cold days.
I am definitely NOT struggling with letting the Lord take Him under his wing...not only on the preschool days but always...leaving me is the illusion that I have anything to do with Moses ultimate safety...we are ALL in His hands...and that includes my first born.
No, my friends...we are all just fine and dandy here. No moping mother or heart heavy parent in this house...just an almost four year old's first day of school.
And just in case I wasn't sure of his readiness for his future...here are some more firsts from the last month...
First trip to the dentist...where he went back all by himself and had a perfect visit.
First time fishing and catching a fish. In case you don't know what pure joy looks like...see the photo above.
First time on and driving a motor boat. Does he looked pleased or what?
First time on a horse...which he surprised us all with by not even flinching. He was so proud.
First time going on a sleepover. While in NJ he got to have an over-nighter with his cousin. Once again without looking back...just a quick hug for mom and he was off.
I can't believe he has grown this fast...but he has grown to be such a great kid. So funny and smart...lovable and sweet...crazy and wild and brave...and all boy. I wouldn't change a thing about him...except how fast he is growing. I sure love that kid.