First to say thanks to each and every one of you lovely lovely folks. I had no idea the response that my musings in the previous post would bring...I was just documenting my thoughts for future reading purposes. It is hard to remember that we each have our own story, that we each struggle in some area(s). I treasure each and every comment and LOVE that there is a place like this that we CAN share and relate and take comfort in knowing that we are NOT in it alone...whatever "it" is.
Which leads to me to something else...I received tons of emails in response to the previous post (in addition to the comments)...and I HOPE that I can reply to each personally but there were a few themes that I thought I could just address here...cause maybe you were wondering too. :)
First is, why share? So many of you wondered HOW I could share something so personal on a blog? How could I be so vulnerable and put myself out there like that? The thing is...I don't think much of it...for a couple of reasons...one is...I think we define "personal" differently. I see personal as my social security number...credit card numbers...things between my husband and I, secrets between friends, my bank account...all personal. Things concerning the condition of being human? My feelings, my struggles, my emotions and shortcomings...Not so personal. I share sometimes with the hope of making a link to someone else who is "there" too. There is so much comfort in knowing that you are not alone...that there is no "unique" human experience. We are all messy and in need of salvation. I feel like were are here to help each other along...to hold each other accountable...to relate and move forward together. I share to relate. I share to be transparent. I don't want to be a person or a blog that puts up a happy front...that acts like all is perfect...and be secretly in pain on the inside. Pain is more painful when it is concentrated within...sharing it diffuses it...makes it easier to bear.
You know...bear each others burdens and all. :)
I don't know about you...but I love finding a blog I can relate to waaaay more than I love finding a blog that is perfect.
Another set of you were concerned about my emotional well being...about whether or not I may be depressed. I am certain that I can safely say that the answer is no. Hormonal at times? Yes. Depressed, no. :) With my social work background I am well aware of signs and signals that I should be looking for...you are sweet to worry for me but I think I am good in that department. :)
I hope I didn't make you think I was trying to be "poor me" cause that really wasn't my point. I was just sharing a struggle in my life...for whatever reason (and I think that some of the emails I got were why) that subject was on my heart. I DO have friends that I love and adore. I AM richly blessed in my relationships. I DO love who God made me AND I love who He is sharpening me to be.
Does any of that make sense?
Thanks for your support and sweet words. :)