nursing my wounds with hot glue.

You can insert a big fat sigh. Right here. Because that is how I feel at the moment.
Beaten and bruised.
Not by one big event...just by a series of small things that one after another have left me in a place that isn't so pretty.
Feeling less than great...not good at much and second guessing myself.
Wondering about some big things...like...do you stay where you are comfortable...or leap out to grab something new where you can be used the way you feel you are meant to be?
Trying to grab onto some small victories...
no matter how tiny...to get the ball going in the right direction again.
So last night....despite the enormous to-do list...
I grabbed my hot glue gun...some fabric and tried to self medicate with craft. :)
In some silly way these flowers represent what I want for myself...
When you are making them...you have to twist and turn and pull and pinch...
Sometimes you get burned in the process...there are times in the making that they don't look so great...that they look ugly and misshapen. But you keep working with them...twisting and tucking...then all of a sudden...you have this beautiful mess of a flower. Each flaw adding to it's charm and story. Each imperfection making it one of a kind and desirable.
I hope this is the process that God is doing with me...twisting and turning...sometimes until it hurts...leading me through the ugly places to make me into something beautiful. Something that, even though it's imperfect...has beauty in the mess.

xo
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17 comments:

Jill said...

Beautiful post!!!! ...the posies too! (I just made a bunch of these, I LOVE them!...and I got burned too!) it seems sometimes before we can have full joy we must suffer a few "burns" along the way!
Praying for you!
Many Blessings!
Jill

Judy said...

I love this.

Sorry your are getting burned.

At least it isn't for nothing.

Polka Dot Moon said...

LOVE the posies!! Aloe Vera works wonders on burns! Been there with the hot glue gun.......and way back when I used a curling iron!!

~ Lisa @ AbidingThere~ said...

Crystal, I don't comment very often, but I read your blog daily. I love, love, love this post!! And I really love those flowers. They are adorable and I love what they symbolize. Beautiful.

xo

Amanda said...

LOVE LOVE LOVE the flowers!

My answer....leap out and do something new so you can be used the way you...or God rather...wants you to be used. Don't underestimate the power of His perfect planning and timing! Often the times in our life when we don't see clearly or know what to do is when we grow the most in our faith :)

Tomorrow is a new day!

Whimsical Creations said...

Love the flowers. Hugs!

Lisa said...

Your flowers are almost as beautiful as these words. Thank you.
:)Lisa

julie king said...

like any journey life and the creative process both have their ups and downs. i truly think we grow only when we're pushed out of our comfort zone just a bit. i think these fabric flowers are just wonderful!!

Jessica lee said...

xoxo trust your intuition, and your heart, you are right, God is with you, leading you, thats why you are able to craft; it lets the anguish out so the love can come in.
hugs.

Oh Mandie! said...

Beautiful, the flowers, the post, you. Keep you chin up and keep praying and the Lord will lead you down the right path :)

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance."
James 1:2-3

Dime Store Thrift said...

That was lovely...

I know there are days with trial and error...but they pass, usually, quickly:) And look at what is left in its place!

Blessings and Peace, Sonya

Shelly said...

I am being pinched, twisted, pulled and burned, too! And...I'm also waiting eagerly for the loveliness and beauty!

Holly said...

Sigh.......

I love you, Crystal. Feeling exactly that same way today. Reading your post comforted me, dear friend. There is such beauty in the mess! xoxoxoxo

yeahexceptfornot said...

I am loving those flowers!

torinem said...

Your post is very inspiring. I had a miscarriage last week and your words really summed up the way I am feeling. I am just trying to get through this ugly, painful, hard place God has led me to, because I know He will lead me out on the other side a better, stronger wife, mother, friend...

I really love your blog and wanted to tell you that this post just made my day a little better :) Thank you for sharing.

Simply Sara said...

"Beauty in the mess"
Thanks for some fresh perspective.

Beautiful Post.

Renee said...

I'm so sorry you had such a blue day, but you sure made some beautiful flowers!!! I hope you are feeling better now? Especially since you are in the middle of getting ready for the best birthday party EVER!!
I'd LOVE to know how to make your "messy" flowers!

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